Alliances get armed!


I have been reflecting what i have done these few days. Okay maybe not a few. I realise that there is too many things changing around me.
firstly, my friends around me are starting to separate from me.
secondly, i have been too not myself lately.
thirdly, my results are slipping.
fourth, I did not have many things going smoothly.
fifthly, I have been missing alot ppl!!!
sixth, I deprives having true talks!

Reflecting, I have been a pain in the neck to some ppl. Well i noe it myself guys. But i dunno why. Can you guys tell me what's the prob with me? I nid answers! Pls dun keep mum! Then I feel totally different. I feel like a new person. Or isit the things around me has changed? I duno. Anyway my results sux now. Having lyk a failed chemistry... omg! But at least, my A maths won chris for the first time. And my Geog, seems that memorising and understanding makes a big difference. English are so-so still. Then I have so many things going so not smooth. Well i guess everyone's life sure has their ups and downs. As ppl sae, life is like a roller coaster ride. I think its true. I just wanna state this problem which i arent able to tell "you" face to face. I find that you are kinda selfish and stupid-a jerk. But that is lyk times. Sometimes u can make me happy though, but u are also my source of anger. Btw i have been missing lyk many people! Firstly I missed the campcraft members and the days we spent! Then i miss my sec 2 friends, my primary friends and many more! I even miss my onl9 friends! Hope that we could find a day during hols and gather? It will be a total fun! Though i met Zewei that day at bwoling alley, but i guess nth much has came through my mind to talk. HAHA! And erm, jiaxun... I miss talking to you. I really wanna talk to you. Cus i noe u wouldn't lie to me when we talk. U are always true. Even though we have not been talking with one another now, i noe that someday, we will still become best friends again. Just noe that no matter wat, U will be one of the first i will think about!

I hope that my sail in life after MYE will be much smoother. Anyway, ppl out there, can u answer my questions of life(currently). And I dun really dare get close to anyone now. Alot of you have been putting a fake front. I dunno who to believe. I Do not noe where i shud be leading. I am walking aimlessly now. Pls. I nid a guide. I am calling out for help!!

Written on Tuesday, April 15, 2008 at 8:20 PM