Emo period


Well... Being sad over results and sulking over them is over! YAY!

But more things just get over me.

Okay i agreed that i wunt sulk. So i arent okay? I am just feeling confused.

Just bear wif me for the next posts of emotional confusion!

Here i shall start...

I just dun feel friends are anymore friends. Isnt friends suppose to support one another when they are down? Isnt friends suppose to encourage one another when they are down? Isnt friends suppose to try and understand one another more?

But why arent there such things happening now? Issit becus there isnt any friends around me now? Isit becus I cant find any friends? Isit becus I dun wan any friends?

I onli see people taking advantage of one another. I onli see people adding oil into the flame of others. I onli see the lies and evils lurking around in the school. I onli see the truthless side of people.

Out of a hundred, how much did u say to a particular person about their flaws? How much did u say to him/her is a lie? How much did u say is what u meant and not forced. How much did u say does not have vulgarities? How much did u say is a concern? How much did u say is correct?

I can only hear jokes everywhere. Unclean one, which i dun really care. Clean one, which i dun much gave a care. Lame one, which i dun see the link. But all i see, is the "focus" of these jokers. Why are they joking around even at the time of seriousness. Why are they joking around when the people around them is sad. Why are they joking around when its time to keep quiet?

All I need is a smile of silence. I dun nid a word. I dun nid a lecture. I dun nid a comment. But I just nid ur smile. A smile that makes me noe, that u understand without me needing to specify. Tts a true friend. Tts the warmth of friends. Thats... concern.

I just wanna let everyone out there reading to noe, I do care. I am concern. And its the same the other way round. I nid concern and care. I can give part of my heart to u, but will u accept it with gratitude and grace? Or will u accept it as if its supposed?

Written on Saturday, May 17, 2008 at 7:45 PM